Track 3 Pop music! Wanted to get back to my Fall Out Boy roots with this one hahahha. Jason and I started this track in the Bay and I finished it with Jed at Harcourt. It's a push and pull between feeling bad and desperate and angry and regret. It's a lot, it's the closest I've come to stream of conscious. -- charissa last winter i left you out on that pasture i know that you kept me warm but both of us were deserving of more i looked past all of my bad traits and it came around when i couldn’t keep back the bad days i know i was being awful should’ve paid attention to signals that you were sending should’ve told you when i felt like i was second guessing i was quiet and distant it’s all clearer now that i miss it and i’ll be honest every now and then i want you back regardless of the fact i broke it off we made a pact to stay connected then you took off that necklace i couldn’t blame you for hating the way i left it but still wanna see you around you needed space and it’s selfish but i still wanna see you around i can’t shake a part of this did you get caught up the way i do two months and i’m still on it am i to blame for things i knew now i’m feeling bad about calling you but i still wanna see you around and i cared about you truly i promise wasn’t there for you whenever you wanted but i tried my best (that’s all that i could do for you) what more could you want than me to try my best charissa i know that you’re hurt about my reaction told you to change when really i was afraid to show thoughts about what i wanted hiding all of the heavy and kissing you on the carpet kissing you on the carpet somebody to hold was i just a placement for feelings that you couldn’t face on your own (on my own) can’t shake a part of this did you get caught up the way i do [?] and i’m still on it am i to blame for things i knew now i’m feeling bad about calling i can’t shake a part of this did you get caught up the way i do 2 years and i’m still on it am i to blame for things you knew now i’m feeling bad about im still feeling bad about calling you