Jazz has been an integral, foundational part of the music that I create. Growing up, that's all that would be played around the house: jazz and gospel. Albeit, my pops would play a lot of "smooth" jazz in the house. As I got older, I began to discover the earlier jazz legends like Oscar Peterson, Ahmad Jamal, Bobby Hutcherson, Coltrane, Bill Evans, Miles, and so many more.
I remember sitting in my studio one morning in January 2022 hitting a wall with creating music. I had no ideas and my motivation was waning.
After my morning journaling session, I opened Ableton, pressed record, and played whatever came out at the moment on the piano. It was liberating, to say the least.
In that moment, I removed all expectations of creating something that I thought would be "good". I realized that I begin to falter when I obsess about how "good" something sounds or is perceived in comparison to the previous thing I've heard or seen, which then bars me from even desiring to create anything.
I began to recenter myself around the earlier days of when I first started making beats in middle school and staying up all night just figuring stuff out and creating things. I recentered myself around the moments when I was learning how to play cover songs on the piano on YouTube just for the sake of learning them. I recentered myself around how joyous it is to create what's in your mind and bring it to life and what a blessing that is.
Resurgence is me finding my way back to my music by stripping away everything and recentering myself around my foundation; the joy of creating music.
My hope is that if/when those moments hit you, remember to go back to the moments where you first fell in love with the process.
Thank you to my bro Shaughn Cooper for capturing this photo.