This is my first release, and my genesis 1/1 so I would like to explain my music.
It's for people who struggle to get over a sense of loss. I always play the piano for them to help heal their sorrows. As you listen to the music, it may sound like a demo; you might find some mistakes, noises, and incorrect chords in it. The music is improvised, and I recorded it in one take. In addition, these situations don't permit me to use formal recording equipment. When I am playing in the presence of others, I always feel it is more important to share the moment, play authentically and breathe the same air, than it is to play accurately. This allows me to match the emotion of the specific time and place. No retake, no arrangement, and no score. This is Grief music - this is what I have named it.
Alexithymia is a term to describe the inability to identify ones own or another person's emotions. When suffering from serious damage to our inner world, we are often prone to pretend we are unharmed. After that, we have lost our real emotions.
In retrospect, I may have been able to accept my grief through playing the piano for those who hold similar difficulties in their life. By facing my grief, I found the desperate need to express the shouting of my heart. While playing this melody, I felt that It was about time to receive "closure". At the same time, my hope is that this might have something valuable for others.
I am happy to share my music with you - I hope it will be collected by a person who loves it and also the bigger picture surrounding the melody. If you are interested in my story I will tell you in more detail later.